My Friend, My strength & Inspiration, My Guide

[Little Wolf]

I thought you might be interested in my personal journey with my guide. Please excuse the typos

My first meeting was when I was about 5 yrs old, he first appeared as a light being. (I can still feel the joy I felt, I was so mesmerised my this light). He would shower me with love and strength, When I was in a very difficult situation. But why didnt he stop it? Around 10yrs old I woke to singing, (later realised it was chanting) a male native Indian sitting on the end of my bed, at first I screamed out to my parents, (they would normally call back to me, to say they are coming) within seconds, I realised this Native Indian, was my friend Mr Sparkle, the name I gave my light being friend. He would also give me encouragement..

I would go to the paddock to talk to the horses, when I was feeling down and called upon my friend. Mr Sparkles was always near by when I needed him, So one, I could trust and rely on. I started to have vivid dreams, the dreams were disturbing, and predictions so to speak, I started telling my parents about these, and when they started coming true. They told me they didn’t want to know anymore. Cause all I was doing was hurting and worrying people. I thought it was normal. So I started confining in a close friend. (I told her, her brother was gay I thought gay meant happy and will die young, okay I shouldn’t have said that., He came out of the closet when he was 29yrs old and died of Aids in and other complications in 2004 he was only 34yrs old)

She started to tease me, and tell me I was crazy. So I started to think why has sparkles, caused me so much upset, when he first cared and gave me so much guidance, like a father. I started to close myself off and when Mr Sparkles appeared I would tell him to go away. I realise now, he was always with me, standing in the background until I was ready to acknowledge him again.

Fast forward.. In 1995, Hubby and I had broken up, when I discovered I was pregnant. We both agreed that we could not get back together, just because I was pregnant, it would never last. Then we would split again and cause hurt to our unborn child. We came to an adult arrangement. I coudn’t tell my parents I was pregnant, cause it would have hurt them, being unmarried etc.. (I knew I would have to tell them at some point)

On the 25th February, 1996 I rang my brother to tell made him and swear he would not tell anyone, I needed his help. He rushed me to the hospital, when I was admitted I asked him not to tell my Mum and Dad, Just let them think I have gone away with work. I had a miscarriage, I felt so alone in the hospital. I felt a nurse stroke my face. I turned to acknowledge her and say thankyou it wasnt a nurse, actually there was no one in the room only me it was Mr Sparkles, this is when I knew everything was going to be fine. This was also the time when I realised I was not crazy. I had a little giggle thinking of the movie “Right said Fred”.

I learnt to meditate at a young age, (when I did competitive gymnastics our coach taught us) . It was only basic but decide to put these skills back into practise. Over time I went deeper and deeper.. Every time, I felt Mr Sparkles stronger and stronger.
He started to appear with his pet wolf. He raised Wolf from a pup, when white man hurt him. Wolf became a strong influence on me as well, He told me the importance of family and to give and receive affection when it comes to friends and family. I am still working on the physical affection part lmao. I also realised that I had met Wolf before, and not even realised it, (Wolves had always had a soft spot in my heart).

Fast foward to a few years ago... My connection with Mr Sparkles and wolf started to become very strong, I kept asking for his name, he kept saying it wasn’t important.

Over the next 6 - 8 months, I started to get signs in meditation , things that were yellow, the sun, sunflowers, lemons, then over two days, everyone I spoke to would mention a wolf. It was rather bizarre. I even drove behind a car with number plates wolf - I wish now I wrote the numbers down as well. This is when I started to call Mr Sparkles , Yellow Wolf. Someone mentioned to do a google for his name. This was when I discovered his tribal war name was Heinmot Hihhih meaning White Thunder or White Lightning (Heinmot meaning either) I told Mr Sparkles from now on he will be called Yellow Wolf.



I will stop my rambling now, as I think I have gone on to much..... lmao I do have more and happy to share, I also have a female guide. I believe the women is the balance. Yin and Yang, masculine and feminine. If that makes sense. My relationship with her isn’t as strong as it is with Yellow Wolf.

"Walk in Beauty"
Creators Blessings
Mel x

[Anne-Marie McCormack]

Thank you for sharing your spiritual awakening with us. I connected with you and felt your pain while I was reading it. Yellow Wolf was also known to you as, "Grandfather" in a previous life where he raised you. He's a big part of your journey and is never very far from you. Love, light & chocolate Anne-Marie

[Little Wolf]

hello Anne-Marie,
You know what you are correct my friend,... I have said "Yellow Wolf was my father from a previous life" I also have strong recall of the Massacre at Wounded Knee, i do feel this is where I lost my life.. Not from being murdered by white man, I slowly died from sorrow.

Creators Blessings
Mel

[Helen]

Hi Mel,
This is beautiful, you are blessed to know your guides.
in lakesh,
helen

[Catherine]

This is so interesting. Thanks for sharing, and I would love to learn more about your experiences.
Love and Light, Catherine